Updated: Feb 23, 2019
Tonight, I needed peace, and for the first time, I knew exactly where to find it.
I don’t mean the kind of peace that this teeny little organized corner of my room brings to my OCD-self - no, a much deeper peace is what my soul thirst for tonight. .
This peace is not circumstantial, it does not waver, it does not fail, even when I do.
This peace can never be taken away from me by anything in this world, because this world didn’t give it to me. Christ did, God my Faither did.
I am slamming my head against a wall right now trying to figure out my next steps in life, looking for a new job, a new season, a new SOMETHING. 40 years in the desert is no-jokin’ Hoboken.
But God knows what He’s doing friends, and oh how beautiful it is 💗 I never thought I would be able to genuinely be thankful for this seemingly never-ending, difficult season of life; but I am overflowing with gratefulness tonight because this season has brought me to seek God fiercely. God has slowly, but surely, knocked down my walls of pride, doubt, selfishness, and fear. He has stripped away the layers of my hard “I-got-this” attitude and softened my heart to begin to see the world through His eyes of love and mercy.
I am ever-growing, ever-healing, and ever-learning more and more about who God is, who I am, and what is truly at the heart of my life and God’s amazing purposes for me.
“Oh you of little faith”
And yet, Jesus loves us, He is our constant helper in times of trouble, our refuge, and our strength. I do not know all the answers friends, I never will, but I do know that my life is in the almighty hands of my Creator, and that is true peace.
Unbreakable, unshakable, unmovable peace found in knowing Christ; and the more I know my God, the more I trust Him, and the more I trust Him the more peace I have. God is so good!
Always, Nicole 💕