Hungry
Perhaps you've noticed I've been quiet lately, it's because I'm desperately hungry.
No, not for a meal; but for the Bread of life.
You see, somewhere in the craziness of life; in my grasping for control, in my desire for fulfillment and true, deep satisfaction in my soul- I lost sight of the true source of our deepest satisfaction, I lost a hunger, a fierce craving for the Bread that never leaves us hungry, Jesus.
A few weeks ago my pastor said "If you feel like you are pouring from an empty cup, your focus is wrong"
Words from my own mouth just days before..."I'm sorry, I just feel like I'm pouring from an empty cup right now."
But what he said next hit me right between the eyes... "If you know Jesus, your cup is full"
Ouch.
God has been not-so-subtle about plastering verses everywhere I look lately with the words "Return to me" (Zechariah 1:3, Joel 2:12), "Seek me with your whole heart and you will find me" (Jeremiah 29:13) "Seek first the kingdom of God." (Matthew 6:33)
You get the point, God wants me. All of me. Wholeheartedly His.
And deep down, I knew I did too. I tried to cover it up with busyness, with distractions, with excuses, with a good exterior. But "the Lord looks on the heart" (1 Samuel 16:7) And my heart has been needing a big 'ol RESET button. How thankful am I for a God who is patient and merciful in our wandering, who calls us back to Him again and again, who pursues our hearts relentlessly because He wants us.
Jesus wants us. Not perfection, not performance; us.
He wants our hearts, whatever they look like, He's got it. He knows. He just wants us to come home and rest in the truth that He is enough. I need to rest in that truth, to return to my first love, to the place where it all began. To the place where the soft whisper of Jesus saying "You are enough" in my heart, was enough for me.
I want to crave Him more, to be on fire for Him again, to be consumed with His truths, and His words, to know Him, to seek Him above all else, to know and to believe in the deepest parts of my being that He is enough. And if I have Him, my cup is full.
Amen.
Lord, help me to remember that You are enough, set my eyes upon You and open my heart to You this week. Help me to reset my focus, and to return to place where You are enough and it is well with my soul. Forgive me in my wandering Lord, and thank you that You welcome me with open arms every time, that you are relentless after my heart, and for your unchanging and unfailing love for me. Shift my eyes and my heart to You Jesus and let thankfulness overflow, because I am Yours, and You are mine. In Your name I pray, Amen <3